Sabtu, 25 Disember 2010

~Time Goes By...

~It's been a while since that..Everyone were asking me WHY??..only me,myself and i know exactly what this is all about..i'd rather keep my mouth shut all the time..KNOW What?...I'm tired..Really2 tired..i guess i dont have to mention here what was happened..God need to explain need to find the need to do anything..JUST SHUT UP and GO..
I pray to GOD that HE will open ur heart..u'll find the answer why i did this to you..

Isnin, 4 Oktober 2010


~~Listen here Darling..we'll make it through..OUR LOVE WILL LASTS FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..U make my world completed!

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Khamis, 9 September 2010

~Little princess..

~I wish i could be just like her..feel happy at all time,never worry about doubt at all..her world is one can stop her to smile..
i wish i could be just like her..sometimes when things become hard at time being,i just sitting alone in my own room and cry..i dont know what else to,i was shocked when i saw a few photos of my past..i was throwing it all before..i SWEAR,nothing left..i deleted all the memories between me and him and nothing left..PROMISE!
on what purpose did those photos was sent?i've no idea..but for sure,it's not for good..i was shaking and started grembling..dunno what happened to me,i took a deep breathe in between..made myself a little bit comfortable..but still,it's not work!
My Question is........WHY?someday..i'll find the answer..i know i'll find what i really wanted to know..

Ahad, 29 Ogos 2010

Love story..

..U know i love U more than anythng..Everything..since our first conversation..i've had a huge crushed on feeling of ya is true..every now n then..i think of ya every seconds..minutes...hours..days..months..for sure,i think of ya all the time..take me as i am..i know that the time will come..we'll be 2gether 4ever..U are what i never knew i always wanted..

Selasa, 10 Ogos 2010


~ So here's a story about 'THEM'..
..i was looking at the eyes of someone..full of sadness..a teary eyes which was so familiar to look for..trying to hide behind the wall of everything..put the mask on it and pretending saying that everything was alright..
..i know it wasn't easy since that..some mistakes happened and i am putting myself in a crossroad once again..x sanggup rasanya membiarkan hati 'MEREKA' terluka..everytime i saw them..sepertinya ada suatu suara berbisik mengatakan "u've won the 'BATTLE' already..Now everything is yours!"....
~~NO..NO..NO..what i had won recently..i saw myself in a selfishness way and a fierced face smilling,smirk like no other..i saw other people crying..deep inside they hurt so much more..there's a hole inside their heart that no one couldn't see what exactly they felt at time being..
..Everything expectation..
God..i dont want this way..PLS!this wasn't what i really wanted..never expected this will become this far..if i got one last chance..mau rasanya putarkan masa ke masa dulu..


Isnin, 12 Julai 2010


"..i found myself today..and ran away..something pulled me back,the voice of reason i forgot i had..all i know is you're not here to say..what you always used to say..but it's written in the sky tonight.." a beautiful song by Hillary Duff
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whenever i am in a very 'down-to-earth' situation..whenever i almost surrender about everything..whenever i almost give up on something..i look up and try untuk tengok langit serta isinya..(someone told me to do so..)membawa maksud,it's some kind of relaxation teraphy..tho it's not fully working but at least ive got chilled sensation there..and ianya benar2 membantu disaat2 'masa kecederaan' seperti ini..
..terlalu banyak perkara yang tak mampu ku mengerti mengapa ianya terjadi..rasanya seperti nightmare pla..setiap malam menghantui tidur2ku dan membuat hati ini resah gelisah all the time..bukan maksudku menolak  yang telah terjadi..cumanya terdetik di hati ini,for sometimes,rasanya tidak tertanggung beban yang ku galas..mulut seperti ingin berkongsi tapi dengan siapa?does they are the right person to share with or they just a 'FAKER' hiding behind the mask of life?..there's a voice saying 'No one can really understand you,EXCEPT you..'

is that RIGHT?

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P/S: i am soooo tired..tired of all those things!

Isnin, 28 Jun 2010


~You can shed tears that she is gone,

or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on..

Selasa, 22 Jun 2010

~A song in MY HEART..

It's quarter after 11pm..and i am still fresh..UuUuU..i was totally exhausted all day long..spending my time with little thet..and guess what??He is so active nowadays..i couldn't fight,i couldn't tahan whenever he pinched me up..he asked me to play along with him sama2 ngan his very own 'ULTRAMAN'..all i did was,i just ikut ja apa dia punya suka..i just follow wherever he will bring me to and whatever he want me to do..everytime i look at him,suatu perasaan yang sangat senang wujud jauh di sudut hati ini..
He never think about giving up..jatuh macammna sekalipun,dia tetap akan bangun and do the things he want once again..that's him..macammna sakit sekalipun,he'll cry for a second and then after a while..dia akan tertawa semula..lupa apa yang berlaku..(alangkah bagusnya...!)
i've learned so many things from him walau dalam hanya beberapa hari bersama dengannya..he teached me about life and its surrounding..about everything..tentang perkaitan setiap perkara dan kejadian yang berlaku..tho he never ever teach me manually..but spending time with him making me fikir dalam tentang hidup ini..thanks little thet..!
he'll be back to KL soon..he'll go with bianca and his mummy and daddy..i'll be missing them pray will always be with them..ALWAYS!

Rabu, 9 Jun 2010

Dear GOD..

---> How long will it be before i can get through my daily routine without feeling the wave of pain sweep over me..without sensing that knot in the pit of my stomach..without dwelling on what went wrong?? world is spinning around..i cant make up my mind already..geezzzz..(=_+)

~What should i do during this period of time?..i am weak already..i dunno where should i lend my hand to,where should i put my head...i need someone's shoulder to cry's soooo PAINFUL..i never wanted to have all this kind of feeling..please!
~Expecting something..knowing something that might happen..
selepas satu probs,then datang lagi satu..x habis2,bahkan takkan pernah habis..What Should i do now..?im speechless already..beban yang kutanggung kini bertambah..bahu x tertahan mau menggalas semuanya..i just mampu buat sedaya upayaku..i am enduring my PAIN heart aching..i just dunno what to do anymore..bukan maksud ku menyalahkan apa yang terjadi..bukan maksudku x mau terima apa yang berlaku..i just..i just..hmmm..what to say aa?
 ~I wish I was a kid again,because skinned knees are easier to fix then broken hearts..Time goes by a lot slower..i dont have other option..i dont have any choices..
~DEAR God..heal my heart..heal my the only one i got right now..~

Rabu, 2 Jun 2010

++SomethinG tht i Couldn't TELL anyone but YOU--->DEAR DIARY!

----->It's COMPLICATED!..
I never thought all this things became so complicated..LIFELIFE..apa life suda teach me so far?..apa sy suda bagi sma life so far?apa life bagi sy so far?soalan berpusing2..bingung bukan..?me sendiri pun bingung pa yang suda sa cakap sebenarnya..
WHOOAAA..i never asked for this kind of life bah..setiap yang berlaku nda pernah sangka ini yang akan terjadi..if only i know what gonna happen next,to be honest..i will never do this..BUT who am i mau pertikai kerja TUHAN?God knows everything..He planned everything..Manusia merancang but Tuhan yang tentukan..betul tidak?..
~People around..Tau menuding jari ja..10 kebaikan kabur dengan 1 kelemahan..sebab 1 kelemahan-->mula la..tuding jari,dipersalahkan,dihentam..what else?U named it..!Puas suda hati ini berlembut..puas suda jiwa ini merengkok..puas suda hiding behind topeng2 kehidupan..though i knw im not the right person untuk bahas hal mengenai LIFE..i dont have right untuk sebut pun anything pasal LIFE..but i have my own opinion..and i have my own decisions to choose..
--->Katalah apa saja..buatlah apa mahu kalian...andai sampai nyawa ini diambil sekalipun..ONLY i knw exactly apa yang berlaku..pandanglah serong,ludahlah muka ini dengan kebencian sekalipun..TERSERAH!SUATU HARI NANTI------>kalau sampai Tuhan izinkan all this things happen..RASAILAH NIKMATNYA..I will never ask for more..nikmati sendiri then you'll know..
~~~~FOR SURE..akan ku dapatkan apa yang sudah hilang..airmata yang jatuh ini bukan sekadar airmata kelemahan..bukan airmata kekalahan..mengalah bukan bererti kalah..I'LL GET IT BACK..!REVENGE?whatever...cakaplah apa saja..yang merasa diri ini bah..yang tau sakitnya diri ini bah..biarlah,I DON'T CARE anymore..SORRY TO SAY..

Sabtu, 15 Mei 2010

HuRt So BaD..

~~Hati ini sangat sakit....
Gambaran sebenar merujuk kepada Hati yang HANCUR ialah seperti dicarik,dikoyak,dipecahkan,dihempas..
SANGAT SAKIT..hingga x tertahan oleh tubuh ini untuk mengangkatnya..
Saat bening subuh..dikala matahari belum menampakkan diri..tanpa sedar,tears falling down slowly..No words can express how HURT i am..totally insane!
~~I said to God..

I’m living for this cause,

I lay down my life into Your hands,
I’m living for the truth,
The hope of the world in You I’ll stand,
‘Cause all I want is You...

What shud i do?i asked myself..things become harder than i expected..Berantakan..
Maunya apa mempersoalkan hak privasi individu?Maunya apa mengatur segala keadaan untuk bisa dijadikan kepentingan sendiri..memerangkap  org lain,memasang jerat tanpa perlu kuatir akan perasaan orang lain?Mengundang perasaan bersalah agar tidak lari dari setiap tingkah laku?

~~Apapun yang terjadi..
    Berjalanlah tanpa henti..
    Air mata tertahan..
    Waktu untuk dijatuhkan..(=.=)

Buatla apa mau mereka..Buatla apa suka sekali pun..Buatla semuanya,Biar hancur..Biar kelihatan tewas,Biar Buta mata yang melihat..Bisu mulut yang bercakap,tuli orang yang mendengar..

~It doesn't bother me doesn't make sense anymore..sebab berkali-kali hati ini HANCUR berkecai..SANGAT HANCUR..meninggalkan serpihan2 yang x boleh d kutip hatta disambung sekalipun..
...Berlalulah subuh pagi meninggalkan seribu satu macam persoalan..yang jelas,semuanya BERUBAH drastik..saat perlu untuk bina sebuah mahligai,kecapinya hanya sementara..punah segalanya..

Rabu, 12 Mei 2010


'Bosan..aku dengan penat..
Dan enyah saja kau pekat..
seperti berjelaga tika..
ku sendiri..'

----->Terkenang seketika bait2 puisi ni..puitis sungguh!really..
semenjak dua menjak ni,jantung ini terasa berdegup kencang......'dug dug..dug..dug dug..dug..'what does it means anyway?Hati resah semacam..apakah maksud 'keadaan' ku ini?..LUPAKAN keadaan ni seketika.. (Sure there's something right?,furthermore i am depend on God)..kalau makin diikut..memang DOWN giler..but something yang bagus pasal me(kadang2 la) suka menyendiri kalau DOWN sambil memotivasikan diri sendiri..meaning to say,PUJUK DIRI sendiri la bah kunun..(n___n) x boleh selalu kan..sometimes need somebody jg untuk 'BAKAR' semangat yang  luntur..
ANYWAY,telampau melalut sampai lupa mau share sesuatu sama korang2 suma yang sedang mengikuti perkembangan blog ku ini..
LATEST NEWS---->berguling2 sa ketawa bila one of kakak ni offer sa masuk 'UNDUK NGADAU' peringkat hospital..KNOW what?i never ever terfikir pun mau masuk this kind of things!she said,why not try..just for fun maa..lagipun itulah one of life's experience..SO,sejenak sa berfikir,betul la..NIKMATI HIDUP INI SELAGI MASIH sweet..but,maybe awal2 suda kena 'DISQUALIFIED'..because of tinggi x cukup,potongan badan bukan 34-25-36 size..speaking ibunda yang tunggang lagi?u named just 'tersenyum sepanjang c kakak bagi sa motivasi untuk ikut..x pa yang sa dapat cakap just---->sa tengok muka dia and senyum ja..(n_______n)

Sabtu, 8 Mei 2010

5 am..

~It's almost 5am in the morning and my eyes still fresh!!OMAIGAD..
wut happen?i slept 2 hours only and then woke up til now..ayoo..ayoo..ayoo..What 2 do now?gosh!!dont know what 2 do..dun have any idea then..after berfikir panjang skit(masih mamai2..nda tau pa mau di buat..)then me mengambil keputusan untuk membuka laptopku..fikiranku cuma satu..SURFING and then tengok YOUTUBE..(pa mau ditengok tu aaa?)hey,dun think 'YELLOW2' aa..i just happen untuk mau tengok music video from gadis2 yang menggelarkan diri mereka 'SPICE GIRLS'..(im a big fan of them actually..)lama nda tengok ni..i miss their 'SPICE UP UR LIFE','HOLLER','WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE','LET THE LOVE LEAD THE WAY',..bla..bla..bla..etc..
GUESS WHAT??????i found their very beautiful,touching song after's 'MAMA' touching la dis song..betul2 mengingatkan ku kepada mama 'terchentaaa'..(apa khabar mamaku nun jauh disana?)hopefully that everything is fine i miss pulang kampung terchentaa..but apakan dayaku,cuti panjang skit then i'll go back home..i cant wait to see my new niece..little BIANCA LOURDES..(~_~)
sending my 'KISS' from far away to u..tunggu aunty aa..will cubit2 your pipi then..will hug and dukung you til puas..tunggu ya..(^_^)
hmm..o ya,i plan go to somewhere at the end of may..but not sure whether jadi or not..but whatever it is just a simple plan to chill out for a while..sementara orang2 sabah merayakan kaamatan sambil aramai tih,me pla tukar plan..menyisihkan diri dari segala keporak poranda and pergi untuk mendiamkan diri for a while just to gain my strength again..(am i losing my strength?)aduhh...kok nggak tau sih..
bah..'HARI IBU' nda lama lagi menjelma..sempena dengan hari terindah ingin mengungkapkan rasa terima kasih yang tidak terhingga kepada insan istimewa selamanya----->PUAN ALAN GOUNGKIL~~~HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU MUM..I LOVE U now and forever..May God bless you always!emmmmuaaaaahh..(KISSES FROM UR DAUGHTER)..biarpun mungkin my mum x tau mau buka BLOG or tidak tau mau buka FACEBOOK..but one thing im sure yang She Understood me in all way..kan..kan..k lah,sampai sini dulu..nti2 ada banyak g cerita mau d kasi cerita..cukup2 dulu la aa..til then,SAYONARA adion amigos~~

Ahad, 2 Mei 2010

What EXACTLY??..

What exactly i wanted from life?apa bah yang sa mau sebenarnya?..

(~_~)..Hmm,i heard this kind of Question Over and Over again..

waktu mendengarkan soalan LAZIM sebegini..Honestly,sa cuma dapat jawab..'I Also Dont Know Either'..x tau pa yang sa mau ni..
BINGUNG!..(hey,got lots of things name it..pasti ada at least sikit mengenai apa yang kita mau sebenarnya..kan..kan..)---->PELIK@WEIRD kan..sometimes boleh feel just like that..seolah-olah,macam 'mamai2 ni'..kadang x tau pa mau dibuat..kadang terasa seperti ada something yang x kena..
WHATEVER it is..i now understand camna soalan yang seperti ini boleh keluar dari mulut 'seseorang'..BECAUSE,now...i feel the same way too..yEaH..i feel the same WAY..(~_~)

Why is it?kenapa aaa?WONDERING pasal boleh jadi camni pla?PELIK..
ADUII...Kenapalah boleh 'jiwang DOWN-TO-EARTH camni'...(Kadang BEST juga layan BLUES x boleh selalu..nti effect DIRI SENDIRI..haaa..sepa susah?DIRI SENDIRI juga kan..)

--->Fikir punya Fikir..sampailah migrain 'attack' ni..Adada..sampai gitu sekali sih?kok bisa?...PA BAH YANG SA MAU NIH?..somebody..please?any x tau benar2 x tau pa jadi suda sama sa ni..semenjak dua menjak ni,feels like macam da something jak yang akan berlaku..

GOD..HELP me....(=_~)

Rabu, 28 April 2010

** JUST 4 You..and You..and You!

~Hi i am's been so long(Few days ago) since my last i miss blogging..i was too busy with MY LIFE..seminar here and there..working..catching up everything..menikmati semua yang harus dinikmati sebelum semuanya diambil pergi..hehe,puitis sungguh!
well,that's what i should do instead of just letting every minutes gone without doing something..or anything..or whatever,right?..before i go too far..
i would like to dedicate this beautiful love song to YOU(you know who you are..)I LOVE YOU with all my heart..i just happened to put this song to my blog site..and hopefully ianya mampu membuat telinga2 yang mendengar merasa aman..later i'll continue blogging banyak cerita2 menarik untuk dikongsi sepanjang ketiadaan sy beberapa waktu dan ketika..hehe,SO...ENJOY YOURSELF!

Rasanya tak ingin berakhir

Saat kita rasa bahagia
Hidup penuh dengan misteri
Kadang sulit kita jalani
Takkan bisa sendiri
Meraih mimpi tanpa cintamu

Terlalu indah ‘tuk dibayangkan
Terlalu manis untuk di kenang
Karena engkau ku ada di sini
Kau selalu ada di hatiku dan di cintaku
Takkan bisa sendiri
Meraih mimpi tanpa cintamu
Back to Reff:
Terima kasih telah memilihku
‘Kan ku jaga cintamu selamanya
Ku ‘kan selalu jadi yang terbaik
Melantunkan melodi terindah
Hanya untukmu....

Khamis, 22 April 2010


~it's just a simple song yang mengandungi 1001 makna yang sgt mendalam.
...this song just melt me away..

Apapun yang terjadi

Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan
Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti
Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti
Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Semoga kepergianmu

Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan
Semoga mampu kulawan
Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti...

Rabu, 21 April 2010

+AfRaiD FoR LoVe To FaDe..++

------>It's been a few days ago since my last post..a bit bz with 'THINGS' here and there..had a very exciting(kinda fun) journey with friends of mine(guys!u all are so sporting..)
+++Later i upload some photos during our ROAD to PANTAI TIMUR..macam2 ada ni..just wait aaa...just wait!
~~some say 'NIKMATI hidup ini selagi ada KESEMPATAN' i try my very best untuk menikmati setiap saat dan waktu yang tersisa WHATEVER i want 2 do..x kisahlah..janji,PUAS..that's what life worth for..rite?
***Thanks to My Dearest one for concerning..tho we both bz with our things but stil ada ruang untuk 'bertanyakan sesuatu'..or whatsoever untuk waktu2 yahg sangat terbatas..itu suda cukup membuat hati kecil ini terharu..pls notice that--->i am waiting for you..(^_^)..
***o ya,Got something for u..

~~P/S: I LUv ThiS SonG so much..!

--->Hmm..This song also bagus utk didengar..Malay version but tak kisahlah..janji sedap didengar..setiap bait kata yng terucap menggambarkan sesuatu yang sangat unik,menyentuh hati nurani..jiwa raga dan perasaan,here it is..
~~Just ENJOY it!

+++k lah aa..that's all for now,will continue blogging later..til then,BuBYE....God Bless!+++

Ahad, 18 April 2010

++Me,Him and everything..

Ari Lasso feat. Bunga Citra Lestari - Aku Dan Dirimu
tiba saatnya kita saling bicara
tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa
tentang rindu yang menggebu
tentang cinta yang tak terungkap
sudah terlalu lama kita berdiam
tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam
memenuhi mimpi-mimpimu malam kita
duhai cintaku, sayangku, lepaskanlah
perasaanmu, rindumu, seluruh cintamu
dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu
sesaat di keabadian
jika sang waktu bisa kita hentikan
dan segala mimpi-mimpi jadi kenyataan
meleburkan semua batas
antara kau dan aku...

~~syok banget layan lagu nih!
..i am resting myself here in Hotel,somewhere at Lahad Datu..a bit tiring(it's a long journey)..but i still can manage to smile after all..i just happen to open a folder of music and searching for a song to sing..i saw this kind of song then i let myself 'layan' jugak..dengar2 every bait2 lagu,i feel sooooooo.......huh!what a touching song..Napalah lagu ni timbul di saat ketika ini..disaat kerinduan yang sangat menebal membara di jiwa??(Aduh..jiwang lagi..)

Rabu, 14 April 2010


Hello everyone..TESTING>>Testing..
I'm just finishing tangkap beberapa keping GAMBAR using Youcam..
mcm syok first me just want to gambar suka2 untuk koleksi peribadi..But then,nampak cantik pla(im not expert on this kind of things)
Pa2 pun..memang best la..exploring new style rambut and------------------>inilah hasil keja tangan gwe..hehe!

Isnin, 12 April 2010

SaD Story..

~ I put this thing on my blog,,just to let u all know how touching i am..keep watching this..u'll feel how great love it is..this is what real love is..~

Little Star..

Twinkle twinkle little star,

how I wonder what you are?
Looking at your magic light,
watching over us tonight.
Before my dreams take me away, I kneel beside my bed and pray
For all the children in the dark, till tomorrow,
twinkle little star.
Promise me you'll twinkle little star.
Cos everybody needs a little star.

Crying in the rain Pictures, Images and Photos

~~And tears falling down and i dunno the middle of the darkness,here i am..
i wish that everything will be fine..
everything will be back to normal again..
i wish that i dun have to cry over and over again..
i am tired of crying all night long..
~~sorry kalau coretan ku ini membuat orang2 merasa boring.asyik2 nangis..asyik2 nangis..seumur2 nangis all the time..nampak sgt weakness ni..
(....Well,who cares anyway..this is me..i am responsible of my own business,right..?)
should i tell everybody what caused me so-down-to-earth?or should i yell to everybody what's inside my heart just so i could feel calm at time being?i've no idea of what happened to me now..dengar lagu ni ja..nangis ni..touching sgt kot lagu ni smpai menyentuh jiwa raga ku ini..DUH..stop2 crying..dont be like this..u're strong gurl..u're tough..STOP it..dun cry..(am trying my very hard to stop..BUT unfortunately------->failed to STOP!

Sabtu, 10 April 2010

To-------------------->Him with LOVE!!

Menurut kalian,apa itu cinta?haaa..kali ni we story2 pasal LOVE pla..ntah napa tiba2 boleh ter'FIKIR' untuk cerita pasal ni..layan ja la kan..Hmmm..menurut kalian,pa itu cinta?

~~some say..cinta itu buta(betulka?)
some say..cinta itu perlu pengorbanan..
some say..cinta itu keinginan untuk hidup bersama disertai dengan tanggungjawab dan pengorbanan..
~~Well,whatever cinta it is..ianya suatu feeling yang sangat indah..(jiwang banget nih)
----->when u fall in love..rasa macam nda kena saja ni..hati berdebar2(yakah??)..ter'INGAT'2..makan macam nda selera..tidur kadang nda lena..ayooo..inilah penangan CINTA kan..(to all people out there yang sedang baca blog ku ini..maybe pernah atau sedang mengalami apa yg sa alami bah dun hide ur feeling..dun deny it..everyone pun feel the same also..hehe)
To the man i love so much...
listen here..
i am waiting for you to take me as urs forever..
i dun wanna be away from you anymore..
i want you to take care of me for the rest of my life and be with me no  matter what happen..promise me?
~~for sure..u will always be mine..NOW & FOREVER!

~~just look into my heart...U'll see...u'll see..
~~Someday at the chapel..we'll standing in front of everybody..i'll be ur wife and u'll be my man..FOREVER!

~~From the giving u everything..anything..
JUST want to let U know how much i love and care for you..
----I LOVE U----

Pity U..

Yesterday(09042010)..i accompanied my sis went to skin specialist pity on her..i understood how it's goin when kena attack allergic..Dui,Only God knows how i felt last year when the same things happened to me..

(09042010)3:18am..i was still awake(couldn't slept--->so i listening to any kind of songs and buat sesuatu di pagi subuh)..suddenly i received SmSes from JeSS..

JeSS: Pagi karang ko keja pa?mo minta antar ko p skin klinik d dekat luyang da,sa nda tahan sdh,menggaru ja sa kegatalan,huhu
Me:Ko keja pa gia? Sa Off jg ni..

JeSS: sok keja mlm gak tp pagi taw petang la minta antar,ko free jam brapa?
Me: Petang tidur dlu smpai jam 12mid day,b4 jam 2 kta gerak p dlu direct p kecemasan,pastu kena bg surat refferal letter p jmpa pakar..then kena bagi steroid untuk untuk reduce tu allergic

JeSS: Ko jmpa pakar d mna?macam lambat bei law rujuk d Queen(hosp)..
Me: Sa jmpa d Queen,ngam2 wkt tu kawan sa DR keja sna,so sa trus jumpa dia ja..X pa la..ko trus p luyang..jam brapa ko minta ambil?di kolej bah kan..

JeSS: Ya dari ko ja..sebelum jam 2pm la..bap durang rehat gak tengahari kan..ko keja mlm ka ni?
Me: Bah,nti sa p ambil d rumah bei  ni..x sa dpt tidur..hehe

JeSS: Owh bah,sa plan mo pg ari 6 tyme rehat mlm tp takut tutup..bedarah2 lagi telampau sa garu2 ni,telampau gatal..
Me: mcm sa yang dulu tu,sa on steroid dii..nga effect dia sa jadi gulombon(fat)..sbb steroid bikin kuat mkn..huhuh

(perbualan diatas x anyone yang x understand..minta maaf banyak2 from head to toe..sila minta translation from org2 yg tau ni bahasa la..hehehhe)

cian bah adik ku sorang ni..u made me sleepless that night sbb telampau fikir u pnya allergic..pa2 pun,sebelah afternoon gitu..i brought her to Dr Indra Specialist Skin Clinic..x pa la mahal bayar..yang penting kesihatan tu bah kan..

Pssst..sempat g c JeSS arguing wif my mother----my mum tu X-tra concern smpai makan ubat pn dia terlalu obses ni..takut c jeSS x on time mkn ubat..nti x pasal2 alergic datang lg...nangis2 ni c jess mengadu..dui bah..cian jg..

Khamis, 8 April 2010

~~From Paris With Love..

--->Honestly..1st time tengok cover Film ni,i was a bit confused..yalah,tajuk Film ja macam a bit 'ROMANTIS' bila tgk gambar ber'tembak' pla..ya nggak?Waktu mau beli pun macam dua hati ni..
...belika,x beli..belika,x beli...
++beli ja la..(My fren said to me..)
++makin lama ko berdiri sna..makin ko bingung,bingung mau beli yang mna satu..(she continued lagi berkata2..huhuh)
...arrggh,beli ja la..nanti2 baru tengok..syok ka atau x syok itu belakang kira..yang penting beli ja 1st heran jg..napa hati ni memberontak meronta2 mau suruh sa beli DVD ni..last2 sa beli juga...

hampir seminggu from tarikh yg sa beli tu barulah berpeluang tengok ni..(ayooo...too bz with too many things bah)..sana sini,ada jak mau dibuat..
know wat??

--->BEST GILER pla film ni..ingatkan fully romantika...BEST ni..suka sa gaya John Travolta cni..watak lain dari yang len..i was attracted ni..(Dui..what happened??)
consentrate ni tengok ni movie..sampai x rasa lapar langsung..duduk depan TV ja..klu boleh dun wanna gerak skit pun..(begitu hebatnya penangan film ni)..i dont know pla pa pandangan orang len pasal film ni..but for sure mmg best,better u all yang belum tgk,give time to urself..tengok la..then baru buat conclusion..hehehe..


---->It was tuesday night(06/04/2010)..Borneo Praise Music(BPM) team sekali lagi mengadakan perlawanan futsal persahabatan d gelanggang futsal kompleks sukan Likas..(skema juga mau gitau ni..terlalu formal..hehe)we all awal2 lagi suda get ready there..bersemangat waja semua team lelaki and got team perempuan..memang happening gila..

Team lelaki memulakan permainan..our team(all girls)practise menari while waiting for the boys finishing their game..dis coming friday,got Youth Nite d Metro sepa2 yang mau a part of our team..masih banyak lagi kekosongan jawatan..hehe..

~~Sibuk2 practising..sempat lg c oneil minta ambil gambar..~~
.look at us..sempat kena candid lagi cuzzy maikah(pakai baju oren)bersemangat ni mau start main...

----->after penat berlatih n main futsal..then we all go makan2 d anjung selera tanjung lipat..uiyoohhh...makan ja owh..nda putus2 makan ni..badan naik berkilo-kilo baru tau..huhuhu..whatever it was such a great night for all of us..!

Rabu, 7 April 2010

++Happy Hour++

I am sooooooo Happy today..
know what???....happy sgt ni jumpa my siblings..(thnks God for everything!)

It was yesterday mid day when i received SMSes from bie telling me that she,veron and eyan wanna go KK untuk USPB(Urusan Seri Paduka Baginda)..heheh..nampak ja SMS dr c lagi,sa excited@teruja yg teramat sangat ni..yalah,mmg rindu gila ngan durang,d pendekkan cerita..ngam2 jg sa off after keja dengan senang atinya sa 'SEDIA BERKHIDMAT' untuk membawa durang2 semua kemana pun yang durang mau p..x sabar ni mau jmpa durang..

*****Hari yang Ditunggu2 pun tiba.......
~Bie & Veron~

~Kaoru & Me~

we all went to City mall then singgah makan jap..perut lapar ni,sound sumthing suda..mau minta diisi..tanpa berlengah lagi me eyan p order duluan..bie n veron went to toilet for a while..beberapa lama kemudian our makanan sampai ni..

our meal for tengahari...eyan ordered nasi ayam ordered mee laksa claypot..quiet nice and got taste..not so bad..bulilaa..hehe..

x lama pas tu..we went to pasaraya untuk beli SUSU SUSTAGEN c thetcher..(ketawa sa berabis bila dengar c bie cakap mau beli susu ni..jauh sungguh dia jalan semata2 mau beli susu c thetcher..rupanya RANAU selalu kehabisan susu brand ja yang thetcher ngam bilang c bie...)pa2 la bie...yang penting we all had a good time together..
+++Psssst...c eyan got new laptop owh..happy ni muka dia bila sis veron offer mau belikan dia new laptop..(Hadiah cemerlang ka tu eyan?)...x juga lama cari eyan punya laptop...Thank God pekerja d kedai laptop tu very friendly and tunjuk everything ni..(punya bagus klu semua pekerja begitu..kan..kan..aman dunia..)
selesai pasal laptop..kmi rushing p ambil jess d hosp likas..dia practical d sna ni..she asked us to picked her up..dia mau sma2 jalan ngan ni dapat kumpul2..bukan selalu kmi dapat begini..BZ jak kan..
Last destination before Veron,Eyan,Bie and Jess leaving...we jalan2 d warisan square untuk menikmati 'APPLE DONUT' and minum mocca...sedap owh..ketawa jak kmi all the time..''s time for us untuk berpisah..Eyan,bie and veron balik ranau..jess pla balik hostel bukit padang..i sent them all to a place where they could find a transport to go home except jess..(i sent her sampai hostel ni..)Hmmmmm...what a beautiful Day..hope to see tham all again..i am MISSING U already guys!..

Selasa, 6 April 2010

~By Your Side..

~~It's 21minutes before 6am..and im still awake..i am resting myself while waiting for my shift end at 7am this morning..Hmm..a new day come..tuesday already far as i couldn't realise about everything or even something,i imagine myself being somewhere where i dont know where exactly it is..i captured myself 10 years from could it be?i thought long and hard..trying my very best to remember everything from past..just so i could blend all the good memories and bring it back on present and keep remembering it for future time..
~~~huhh..early mind spinning i miss those beautiful moments of some occasions happened in my life lately..i was mesmerized and touching everytime i think of it..
----->my tears coming down so fast..i look to no one..i am alone in this place hard as i try to persuade myself to calm,i saw a beautiful words saying..'REMEMBER,WHEN YOU FEEL LONELY OR THERE'S NO ONE TO ACCOMPANY YOU..I'LL ALWAYS BY YOUR SIDE..'
(....Stop crying..stop crying..stop crying..please,dont be like this..why i am so down this morning aaa??..)
isn't it beautiful?enough to make my heart stop beating for a while..enough to give me strength and courage for me to stay..i found that words on a piece of paper from unknown..
mmm...after this,i'll be home..wanna take a nap for a while..then will wake up around 2pm..then get ready to meet my cuzzy and friends at Likas stadium..there's a things to be done there..that's all for now..i'll continue later on..

What happened..

I went to Tanjung Aru beach2 last week with frens..i miss SUNSET so much..God knws how much i love Sunset..dah lama rasanya x p jenguk2 beach ni..sempat ambil picture ni..not really nice but i guess ianya cukup untuk membangkitkan semua kenangan lalu ni..Hmm..

Aduuuhhh..What happened to me lately aa?..these days,i miss him so much!(u know who u are..)
God u know that..u know it from the start..
what happen to me aa..?i hope to see him cepat2 ni..

Owh ya..i was sleeping all day long..penat kali bah,keja malam kan..x sedar sampai jam 4.30pm baru woke up from long2 sleep ni..x banyak story yang mau dikongsi but for sure------>I MISS HIM SO MUCH!

Isnin, 5 April 2010

~Happy time~~~

~see our pictures above..Taken this morning(04/04/2010) during a celebration of E-Day..hehe..quiet good huh??!!..whatever it is..memang best kumpul with durang2 semua ni..sporting habis..mau pecah perut kalau spend time ngan many stories to tell ni..anyway,gambar d atas bergambar sama my cuzzy maikah,honney and cyrael..

----->Hah..yang diatas with manda..she's so cute..that day was her last day with us..she finished up her practical already and about to continue her study to other place..huhuh,i'll be missing her..sempat sa hantar dia p tempat her friend coz tonight before leaving she wanna spend time with her friend dulu then balik kampung ni..yang dibawah with my Girl-friends----->onong,christine and sweet cousin maikah..

Manda..hope to see u again..
--->Pandai pula c farah(middle)bergambar..berabis ni durang taking pictures..i was just sitting there tengok2 durang and then ni la hasilnya..
---->picture ke-3 tu,kena ambil tym sa santai2 di mini ofis..sharing some,love..everything with her...

Cutest babies of BPM..thanks to ejoy..he helped me ambil gambar baby2 cute ni..ada beberapa lagi baby cute yang dia lupa ambil..but it's time sa snap lagi byk2 gambar baby aa..suka sa sma baby bah skang..huhu..

~~bah,i guess that's all for now..nti sa blogging g aa..til then..HAPPY EASTER DAY..GOD BLESS US!

Sabtu, 3 April 2010


Hmmm...Here i am again,updating my blog..kc makeup2 skit..biarpun masih banyak yang perlu dibuat untuk men'CANTIK'kan blog ku at least,boleh la di baca bah kan..

Pa interesting for Today aa?Hmmm..
Owh ya..lets talk about was EASTER DAY..
ngam2 juga i was off duty on that day so already planned from the start mau p church for the celebration..Eyen was asking to prepare 'ayam goreng' untuk POT BLESS..coz right after mass,makan2 ni..(Acara Kegemaran ku..hehe)
--->so dipendekkan cerita,i went to the nearest supermarket,CENTRAL kepayan ridge p beli stuffs yg diperlukan untuk masak 'Ayam Goreng'..x banyak juga yang dibeli..just sayap ayam beberapa kilo..tepung kentucky(Hot & spicy flavour) and sedikit barang2 dapur yang lain..pas tu rushing pulang rumah untuk menggoreng then bawa p church...nasib baik sempat smpai before acara mula..(sepa suruh kan..tengok,almost x sempat..petang tu p d starbucks,rindu kan minum dark mocha and baked american cheese cake..yummy..)

well,it was such a great nite..i really enjoyed it..i went home 15 minutes before 10pm ni..sampai rumah ja,mandi then dengar2 lagu smpaila x sedar tertidur...
hehe...that's all for now aa..later i'll continue updating my blog again..


Giving you all of myself,
To you and not anyone else.
Everyday, not just now and then,
To be able to call you more than a friend.
Friendship goes in and out.
To make it stay, to be more than a doubt.
A wish well wanted, to become real,
To see through the mist that's never still.
Hearts that don't stop loving,
Even when one dies.
Eyes that are truthful, that tell no lies.
Lips that share the love so sweet,
Bodies that feel the intense heat.
Sunny days spent together,
Memories that will hopefully last forever.
Winters spent keeping each other warm.
Holding each other through the storm.
Emotions so strong they must be shared,
So someone else does not stand bare.
Giving without taking back.
Never giving into the slack.
someday at the chapel we stand,
To be called wife and man.
To be one forever and always.
Walking down the corridors and hallways.
Life will give plenty of times,
When the corridor splits in two.
We'll go together in the dark,
But if we stay together,
We'll make it through.
Making it through, day by day,
This is what I had to say.
Learn and also be the teacher,
Of what was, is, and could be,
The Past, Present, Future...

Isnin, 29 Mac 2010

Owh My God....!

My Owh My...
Owh my God..

"How Did I Fall In Love With You?"

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall,
in love ,
with you?..............

P/S:------------------>I LOVE THIS SONG VERY MUCH!

Ahad, 28 Mac 2010

It's SUN+DAY...

sunday coming again..and i am here in METRO once again(=_+)...
What a relief feeling at all..i love this kind of,semuanya cukup untuk menggambarkan betapa bahagia nya HARI ini..That God has given such a very2 beautiful ways for me untuk nikmati saat2 indah seperti ini?i deserve to have the best of my life right?and i deserve for everything just like anyone else...

i heard voices of few peoples here and there..semuanya campur2..saat saya membayangkan situasi2 yang hampir tidak terjangkau kan oleh fikiran manusia saya,suddenly a fren of mine mengingatkan saya suatu perkara..well,it's a bit hard to explain it here but when the time come..i'll explain it all...but whatever it was something important..something worthy..something precious.. yang paling sa rasa saaaaaaaangat bahagia..i guess saya dpt apa yang saya mau oredy.. (I GUESS..)hehe...cukup sampai sini dulu..nti sambung lagi ya..!BYE for now..

Sabtu, 27 Mac 2010


Find Me Here..

Speak To Me..
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this..

---->it's the words i wanna say to someone..


~..'I do my thing and you do yours..I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,and you are not in this world to live up to mine..You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other,then it is beautiful..If not, it can't be helped..'

Hmmm..i took so many times thinking about this Quote..makin lama difikir,makin pening pula kepala..dunno why,tiba2 ja rasa mau mendalami 'Ayat2 Emas' diatas tu..(ayat emas meh??..)
..nowadays,i guess..ada beberapa koleksi Quotes yang suda sa baca..mostly berkaitan dengan life,love and diri juga baca quotes di saat2  'down-to-earth' gives strength..kan..kan..

~~~lain pula cerita..ubah topic k..
it was last nite..and i was spending my precious moment with my close cousin wif her hubby and son..what words could i describe what was going on last nite..we all felt great..enjoyable and happy..lama da tidak rasa gini bah..kan bagus kalau this kind of feeling berterusan..Happy and enjoy all the time..but my cuzz cakap,tidak best juga kalau happy and enjoy jaa..mesti mau juga ada sedih2 skit..down skit..susah2 skit..barulah dapat rasa itu kehidupan..
Hmm..i keep smiling bila ingat dia cakap gitu..well,i guess cukup sampai sini dulu ya..i will continue updating my blog lg nti2..just wait so many stories to tell ya all..til then,BYE for now..Adios amigos!

Khamis, 25 Mac 2010


--->Im still here..masih di wad tunggu my friends datang untuk tukar on afternoon duty right now..kak Jamilah asked me to go home early but i refused..
'teda juga sa mau buat di rumah tu kak..lainla kalau ada laki and anak..boleh juga rushing balik rumah jumpa durang..still single ni..balik rumah pun paling2 tengok tv then tidur..'

ketawa kak jamilah bila sa cakap gitu..what a life kan..!i am a bit okay right migrain macam tau2 jak yang sa penat so 'DIA' x attack sa ni ari..(Gud..gud..tidak juga penat sa menahan kesakitan everytime 'DIA' datang...heheh) mau cakap ahh?im speechless ni sometimes..
I read someone's Blog justnow..****Sighed****'s touching my feeling..(=_-)
GOD,what should i do?
TELL ME...U're D only one that i can count on right now..

I still L*** and M*** Him..u know that from the start..God,U know that..cumanya,all i can do is hiding my own feeling to others so that they will not see my weaknesses..i never expected all this will coming back to me..i am already losing my hope of everything(i guess..)whatever it may takes..God,i leave it all to U..

~~LeaVe Me ALONE..

~I drove myself to a place where i thought i found some mind was spinning around..i played a song from 'Jaci Velazques-imagine me without you'..i felt like i wasn't on the earth for a while..i felt like there's a hole inside my heart..

'cuzz,tonite aa..practice for youth nite!got new pattern....'sms from my lovely cousin maikah..she's been so kind to me..she's the one i turn to when i have no one else..

'i'm on my way cuzz..'i replied..
i felt a bit down..i was taking not less than an hour to get there and there i front of them..saying hi and..

'hey,u're here already,come in...'
celestine came to me and gave a hug..i felt calm at time being..she was doing practicing(musical drama) with my she invited me to join them together..

'celes..i just cant..i couldn't come this friday nite! on afternoon's my pleasure to be a part of your presentation that nite..i would love to but i just cant..'i said with a sad face of mine..
'it's ok friend....'celes smiled and continued practising..

They started their drama things..i heard a very touching song while each and everyone of them played their own role..
what song was it?..i started crying..i looked at them all..i couldn't stand's touching my heart..deep inside,i felt like..i just couldn't say anything..
owh..leave me alone..just a while,ill get back to u all..

Selasa, 23 Mac 2010

Life-->full of choices and decision to make!

I remember last nite when i talked to 'SOMEONE' really close to me about this and those things..including life and its surrounding!we kept on talking til we didn't realised how much time we took..huh,how come..i put my eyes on my watch(gift from someone special--very cute) was nearly 3am oredy..we once talked about life..Hmmm...we've been shared long about this topic and sure there's a lots of things about life we debated...hah,x sedar bercakap..tiba2 perlahan la pla suara org d sebelah sana..dui bah..i was trying to remember what was i talking..then i recall it back n found out that maybe my last words made him felt down..'life is full of choices and decisions to it or not..we have to make it on a purpose....'

i heard he cried softly on the heart aching..i tried my very best not to cry..i persuaded myself as i know it will make sense no more..i am tired of fighting..i am tired of hoping..i am tired of laughing..i am tired of everything happened in my life as i trying very hard to go through my life as a normal person as others..

i asked whether i did something bad or not to him..but he once said..
'...everything u've been said before was right..thanks for remind me that..i almost forgot about it and it make me think deeply and deeply...'

hmmm..i guess i was so harshed to him..i guess i was a little bit rude to him bout...EVERYTHING..we ended our conversation last nite as early as he wanted it..with a simple goodbye,he hung down the phone then..its leaves such a million questions on my mind..i couldn't sleep that nite..

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