~Time Goes By...

~It's been a while since that..Everyone were asking me WHY??..only me,myself and i know exactly what this is all about..i'd rather keep my mouth shut all the time..KNOW What?...I'm tired..Really2 tired..i guess i dont have to mention here what was happened..God Knows..everything..no need to explain everything..no need to find the answer..no need to do anything..JUST SHUT UP and GO..
I pray to GOD that HE will open ur heart..u'll find the answer why i did this to you..

~SO CLOSE...

~~Listen here Darling..we'll make it through..OUR LOVE WILL LASTS FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..U make my world completed!

~Little princess..

~I wish i could be just like her..feel happy at all time,never worry about anything..no doubt at all..her world is beautiful..no one can stop her to smile..
i wish i could be just like her..sometimes when things become hard at time being,i just sitting alone in my own room and cry..i dont know what else to do..today,i was shocked when i saw a few photos of my past..i was throwing it all before..i SWEAR,nothing left..i deleted all the memories between me and him and nothing left..PROMISE!
on what purpose did those photos was sent?i've no idea..but for sure,it's not for good..i was shaking and started grembling..dunno what happened to me,i took a deep breathe in between..made myself a little bit comfortable..but still,it's not work!
My Question is........WHY?someday..i'll find the answer..i know i'll find what i really wanted to know..

Love story..

..U know i love U more than anythng..Everything..since our first conversation..i've had a huge crushed on ya..my feeling of ya is true..every now n then..i think of ya every seconds..minutes...hours..days..months..for sure,i think of ya all the time..take me as i am..i know that the time will come..we'll be 2gether 4ever..U are what i never knew i always wanted..

~~ SAD STORY~~

~ So here's a story about 'THEM'..
..i was looking at the eyes of someone..full of sadness..a teary eyes which was so familiar to look for..trying to hide behind the wall of everything..put the mask on it and pretending saying that everything was alright..
..i know it wasn't easy since that..some mistakes happened and i am putting myself in a crossroad once again..x sanggup rasanya membiarkan hati 'MEREKA' terluka..everytime i saw them..sepertinya ada suatu suara berbisik mengatakan "u've won the 'BATTLE' already..Now everything is yours!"....
~~NO..NO..NO..what i had won recently..i saw myself in a selfishness way and a fierced face smilling,smirk like no other..i saw other people crying..deep inside they hurt so much more..there's a hole inside their heart that no one couldn't see what exactly they felt at time being..
..Everything changed..so sudden..no expectation..
God..i dont want this way..PLS!this wasn't what i really wanted..never expected this will become this far..if i got one last chance..mau rasanya putarkan masa ke masa dulu..


..WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?..

SOMEONE..

"..i found myself today..and ran away..something pulled me back,the voice of reason i forgot i had..all i know is you're not here to say..what you always used to say..but it's written in the sky tonight.." a beautiful song by Hillary Duff


whenever i am in a very 'down-to-earth' situation..whenever i almost surrender about everything..whenever i almost give up on something..i look up and try untuk tengok langit serta isinya..(someone told me to do so..)membawa maksud,it's some kind of relaxation teraphy..tho it's not fully working but at least ive got chilled sensation there..and ianya benar2 membantu disaat2 'masa kecederaan' seperti ini..
..terlalu banyak perkara yang tak mampu ku mengerti mengapa ianya terjadi..rasanya seperti nightmare pla..setiap malam menghantui tidur2ku dan membuat hati ini resah gelisah all the time..bukan maksudku menolak  yang telah terjadi..cumanya terdetik di hati ini,for sometimes,rasanya tidak tertanggung beban yang ku galas..mulut seperti ingin berkongsi tapi dengan siapa?does they are the right person to share with or they just a 'FAKER' hiding behind the mask of life?..there's a voice saying 'No one can really understand you,EXCEPT you..'

is that RIGHT?



P/S: i am soooo tired..tired of all those things!

...S.H.E...

~You can shed tears that she is gone,

or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on..